SatGuru: Sourced within you

Only the ego/mind can learn. Learning is an augmentative act, a layering of things over the nothingness of who we truly are. As such, learning is conditioning or patterning: a collection of sanskaars. One can learn facts, events and phenomena in what is perceived as objective reality (and convert them into a body of “knowledge”), one can learn beliefs and values, and one can learn (physical) skills. For learning, there can be sources and teachers, and this learning can be “passed down.”

Awakening is not an act of learning or scholarship. It is a remembering of what is forgotten via the ego/mind, and all its learning!! As such, there are no “sources” that can “teach” awakening. If there are “sources of knowing” and if they are true (SatGuru), they are only pointing to Truth that is already within you, to assist your remembrance. (And any instruction they give is solely on how to look and see.) As such, they are re-sources — reflections of the knowing SOURCED WITHIN YOU. The SatGuru is the Guru within, reflected without. Whatever is awakening within you at this moment (even if the ego has tons of resistance to it), is reflected by the SatGuru. Any resistance to or rejection of the guidance is the ego’s resistance to Self; it has little to do with the “other” person and their offering! (If it did, they/the offering would either not arise in your field of experience, or once they do, you would simply let it go with nothing arising in you)! You may awaken to it, or you may recede into the ego, but either way, the expansion is happening. The seed is sown and will sprout “in time.”  Continue Reading »


Kriya // Practice

Kriya is what emerges spontaneously as (apparent) practice, from the (body of the) enlightened being. And so, a belief has been cultivated and propagated over “time” that one can reverse-engineer enlightenment by emulating these actions as “practices,” and in time, realize the desired effect :-). This can be a trap as big if not bigger than the typical worldly attachments!

If one enjoys any practice for its own sake, without using it as an avenue to something else, then one is just fine! (If not, one is ultimately fine too!) It is the belief in practices as a route to enlightenment that begins to feed the ego/identity with more doing, self-concept, measurement and milestones… this time all “spiritual,” and therefore, misleading one into a bigger illusion than one who lives the typically identified life, since now one is also in the mistaken belief that one has become free of attachment or identification. Now we’ll get a “spiritual seeker” instead of the “success seeker,” that’s all 🙂 Or we’ll get those who are “balancing” the two — spiritual life and regular life — as if there are ever two things 🙂 (And then there’s also the doing of shadow “work,” as if one can work with a shadow :-))

Enlightenment is simply falling/awakening into Self (Love) by dropping past the mind/ego. (Whatever arises as experience of shadow/pain is also observed, embraced and integrated, instead of identified with, that’s all.) Continue Reading »

“Spiritual bypass”

“Spiritual bypass” is yet another mental concept, as it is based in time. Consider that the mind can only assess in retrospect that it engaged in spiritual bypassing, looking back into the past and saying: Oh, I see now how I was levitating above my emotions and only engaging in illusory elevating via “spiritual experience,” and so, I was spiritually bypassing. So spiritual bypass is a conceptualization of the past, and the past doesn’t exist 🙂

When the moment arrives for awakening to Truth (and embracing the pain/shadow that simultaneously comes to Light), that is the only moment one could have seen it! All prior experience, whether perceived as spiritual or mental or emotional or physical, is either all bypass (as the ego will use everything at hand to bypass Truth, regardless of whether it is a spiritual technique or scholarly wisdom or just the usual worldly attachment…), or none of it was bypass — it was exactly as it had to be until this moment of now!

In this moment of now, I am either wholly awake in Self or I have identified with the ego.

And if in this moment of now I am wholly awake in Self, there’s simply no bypass possible. The light is on, and the shadow is seen.

And if in this moment of now I have identified with the ego, then that’s all it is, the ego! 🙂

[Physical] Renunciation

Physical renunciation of the world(ly) is only the other side of attachment to it. It’s a temporary romance with and seeking in the “other worldly,” and the moment there are two worlds, there is once again a divided state.

True renunciation is the dissolving of ego / attachment while in complete physical engagement with Life. It is the bringing in of the light-body into all aspects of physical existence, such that all actions arise in pure inspiration (spirit-in-action), and free of need or compulsion. (We can only choose what we don’t need, including the need to choose!)

A being in such a state is an embodiment — i.e. physically manifest expression — of Love and Light (enlightenment). And this is the true vairagya (dispassion), not achievable by any concerted act of outward austerity or “sacrifice,” but naturally found solely in unconditional Love in the wholly manifest.

If you wish to “give up” something, recognize and release the subtlest need for control, security and approval from within, in every single life situation, right-here-right-now, and see what happens 🙂 All other “things” that don’t serve you in wholeness will also naturally fall away.

[Unconditional] Love

Love, in Truth, can only be unconditional. All of us have some sense of this at core — that we are an expansive spaciousness that can hold anyone and everyone, anything and everything — just because.

Yet, we’ve come to associate “loving” with conditions — we say we love someone “for” their nature, qualities, gifts, values, abilities, temperament, behavior, actions, achievements… and so on. And along the way we become unable to remember and awaken to our nature as Love, independent of the things we perceive others to have or do.

Love is our nature; it is neither sourced in nor dependent on another’s qualities or actions. This fount of Love sourced within, Love that is independent of anything or anybody else, Love that is unattached to outer conditions (whatever they may be), is by definition, unconditional.

Love just is.

All the emotional affect that we think of as “love” or the things we believe we love others “for” (and try to “earn” or “win” others’ “love” by) are attachments. They are attachments based in the three primal needs of our egos (our self-concept / identity) — approval, security and control (and the corresponding “wounds” of shame, abandonment and betrayal) — all related to the fear of loss.  Continue Reading »

Pure awareness

Pure awareness involves no reflection, introspection or contemplation. (All of these involve the mind, and importantly, the past.) Pure awareness is knowing Truth of being in the present, by releasing and dropping past the mind and body. The sensations in the body provide a gateway into this state.

In absolutely any situation, releasing and dropping into this state spontaneously illuminates something (including for action if necessary) without a thought.

Acknowledging commitment

We commonly think of commitment as what we’re wishing to or determining to do or be; yet we only exist in the present, and so our commitment is exactly to what we are actually doing/being NOW.

So, if I find myself feeling sad a whole lot, I can say gently to myself, “I am committed to feeling sadness.” If I complain a lot, “I am committed to complaining.” If I find myself acing everything I do, “I am committed to acing everything I do (and perhaps, to competition).” If I find myself arriving late to most things, “I am committed to arriving late.” If I find myself to be the popular one everywhere I go, “I am committed to experiencing popularity.” If people often tell me what would they do without me, “I am committed to experiencing being needed.” If things are stuck in my life, “I am committed to being stuck and feeling what that feels like.” If I am always busy, “I am committed to busyness.”

We can do this with our feeling states, with our actions, or with the recurring patterns and outcomes in our manifest life.   Continue Reading »